One More
Posted by Robin Easton
I’m the sort of person who could always dredge up “more”. Even when I felt absolutely drained, I could always do one more hour of work, one more post, comment, book edit, meeting, speech, phone call, email — or in the past — one more month of fighting for my life, one more hour of hiking to make it back, one more hour of paddling to get out of the rain, one more day of pulling the “team” together, one more, one more.
UNTIL the last two weeks. It is the first time in my life that I could NOT do “one more”, no matter how hard I tried. A switch in my brain shut off and would not turn on again. I was unable to write a post or leave any comments. Although I tried, I just couldn’t do it. It took days to figure out what was going on. I’ve always been a fighter, a survivor; I fought for my life the moment I was conceived. My mother’s body was depleted from just having given birth to my sister when my soul started its miraculous zygote’s-journey into the physical world. Day after day I fought for my life while my mother’s body, too weak to nourish life, tried to push me from the walls of her womb.
Although undernourished when I came into the world, I had an indomitable spirit. I knew that Life could easily be lost. It was not to be taken for granted. My awareness of death made Life all the more precious and real. Today my relationship with Life is intimate and fearless. No matter how much living I do (and I’ve done a lot) I still hunger for more. I’m enthralled by life, as if each day were my first on planet Earth. I’m so madly in love with Life that I’m deeply committed to it, no matter what it throws my way (and it’s thrown a lot). An indomitable spirit is a good thing and can get me through Life with extreme courage and optimism. However, an indomitable spiritis not something to be abused if I am exhausted and CAN take a break. I mustn’t turn a strength into a weakness. Do you have any strengths that you “overwork”?
Today I remind myself to listen to my heart’s cry to slow down and take time to be alone in the woods. Time to simply breathe. I’m very comfortable doing nothing in Nature. For me it is EVERYTHING to sit still in the woods and listen to wind whisper through sweet pine. And not just once a month or once a week but every day if I can…even for a few minutes. I go to be with the Wild to remember who I am, where I come from and what is real. If you want to know who I am walk into the forest, sit and listen. You will hear me their. 
I know I’ve been awhile away from this page, doing other work and trying to slow down, trying to rest my weary eyes. So thank you my dear kind friends for your patience, compassion and loving support. I think of you all and will visit when things are a bit slower and my eyes are not blurry tired. You are with me; never doubt it.
Love,
Robin
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NOTE: This post is dedicated to and inspired by David of Virginia Breeze for encouraging me to slow down and get back on track. David, thank you from my heart. You know why. Robin
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Alexander M Zoltai Says:
7 November 2008 at 3:01 pm.
I, too, have always been indomitable–until I began treatment for Hepatitis C…
Even up to the beginning of treatment I was unstoppable. Then, the medical drug regimen took over.
What I learned was the critical need for giving myself permission to slow down. The drugs didn’t teach me that, they just made it impossible to do otherwise.
What happened is my spirit learned a supreme lesson from my body’s ordeal…
Now, to put that lesson into practice.
~ Alex from Our Evolution
Robin Easton Writes:
Yes, Alex, I can relate to this. I believe we are blessed when given the experiences that clearly force us to grow…or have the potential in them for us to “choose” growth…even if those experiences are painful. Most of my growth was done in the trenches, not on a bed of roses.
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lavinka Says:
7 November 2008 at 4:33 pm.
When a person does not make your happiness on other people or the property (a house, money, the amount of zeros in its bank account), but the world and admires its beauty … will always be happy, despite the constraints of fate.
Best regards Robin 
Robin Easton Writes:
Hello my dear Polish friend, I completely agree; when we can move beyond trying to find our happiness only in other people, only our bank accounts, property, etc., and can find happiness within ourselves we have found true happiness. I believe we are then free.
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Lilly Says:
7 November 2008 at 4:50 pm.
Hi Robin. Our strengths are our weaknesses too. Yes, it is clear you are one of those people with boundless amounts of energy which you so graciously share with the rest of us. It’s great that you have taken time out to recharge your batteries and don’t forget we will always be here for you. You are in touch with your body and what it needs and its great you gave yourself permission to slow down. That is a good thing. Always love your posts and this is a good lesson for us all.
Robin Easton Writes:
Oh dear Lilly, thank you for these kind words. So wonderful to see you here…as you know. You have really touched my heart. RE: “…don’t forget we will always be here for you.” You remind of David who said the same thing to me. I am deeply grateful for such support and kindness. You are a blessing!
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Pentad Says:
7 November 2008 at 6:13 pm.
I understand you. That is why we also recently got away for a few days. And, I felt myself finally beginning to breathe properly on a canoe headed into the rain forest in Panama. It is the rainy season right now, and as the rain hammered down, it forced me to listen. That’s when I felt the exhaustion melt from the past months…a huge wave of tears bubbled up, and this in itself forced me to breathe. It was fantastic. Take very good care of yourself! Don’t worry about all of us disappearing from your blog. We’re not going anywhere!!!! *smile*. Best wishes to you!
Robin Easton Writes:
Dear Pentade, what a treat to see you here. Your honesty really touched me and hit home. I felt so grateful that you understood. I read this and KNEW that you did. Also re: “Don’t worry about all of us disappearing from your blog. We’re not going anywhere!!!!” Bless you for telling me that. It means more than you know. I also LOVED the imagery of you in a canoe, headed into the rainforest, crying in and with the rain. That is a very special image that will stick with me for some time. Thank you my friend.
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Lance Says:
7 November 2008 at 8:28 pm.
You are doing the right thing Robin. Rest, and come back when you are ready – and fully charged again.
And, tomorrow (since it is late tonight) I will step out my back door, and wander into the woods behind our house. There, I will stop, I will sit down – and I will listen for you. I know I will hear you – a lovely sound as I rest amongst the many trees, leaves falling. I do look forward to tomorrow – and what the forest will “say” to me…
Robin Easton Writes:
Dear Lance, thank you for your support; I am grateful for it and your kindness here. What a wonderful image of you in the forest with all the leaves falling around you. What a joy!!! Thank you for understanding. You got it, which of course does not surprise me. : )
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Shirley Says:
7 November 2008 at 8:44 pm.
Go! Get some rest and an earful of Gregorian Chant or Kenny G. That always relaxes me. Don’t worry about a thing. First thing in the morning I’ll look for some nice serene pictures.
Robin Easton Writes:
Aaaw Shirley you are so kind. This whole message brought a smile to my face. I loved it. You must be SUCH a good Mom. I felt mothered by this little note. It really touched me. And here I am old enough to be your mother…and yet I STILL felt delightfully mothered. Thank you SO much!! I love it and you!
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Robb Says:
7 November 2008 at 8:54 pm.
Kia ora Robin,
I do Hear you. I love the thought of you traversing the forest by yourself and in harmony with it, then just being there flowing in the Quiet of Nature. Please do! I often sit for hours in the high forest and soon become part of its song, my breathing slows, my heart beats with another pulse, I can hear each nuance of the wind, feel myself swaying gently with the trees. I wish this for you. Kia kaha my beautiful friend.
Aroha,
Robb
Robin Easton Writes:
Oh my dear friend!!! I know you understand and I can easily see YOU sitting DAYS in the high forest. We are alike in that way, huh?!! This encourages me and helps me realize I am on the right track. I am already planning a summer solo trip. And some upcoming day hikes. Hopefully tomorrow into the high mountains, already some snow, but I love it all. Will just dress like the “Indomitable” Snowman!!! LOL Or should I say, “SnowWoman”! Aroha dear friend!
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WD Favour Says:
8 November 2008 at 12:14 am.
I’m not really the forest type, and I can’t claim to have a very large amount of energy (I’ve got my own share, though..lol). But I can relate to you in the sense that I’m involved in a labor of love. I love what I do so much it’s very difficult to take a break from it! At some time, I was scared I’d gotten addicted to my work! Recently, my body behaved in a way that compelled me to withdraw from work for a couple of days. I was quite surprised and impressed at the results: I was stronger and more refreshed, had better quality ideas for my work, received a whole new perspective about my life.
I wish I can honestly say that I’ve learnt my lessons! I’m still working in this area, to take out time to get away from it all and just rest and recreate my spirit, soul, and body.
I read this post 3 times!!! Thanks for the refreshment and reminder it has provided for us ‘workaholics’.
Robin Easton Writes:
I too have found that getting away from my work and doing something else that I love, completely revitalizes me and instills creative thought, fresh thought. I think it can be harder for those of us who LOVE what we do. I too love my work, pretty much all aspects of it. My work is my passion as well. It might be easier for people who don’t enjoy their work to walk away and put it down. I find what I do exciting, enriching and rewarding. BUT I still need a change and down time. So it’s a good reminder for both you and me! LOL
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Mike Foster Says:
8 November 2008 at 3:16 am.
Hey Robin…
Sometimes we need to listen to our mind and body when they tell us to slow down, relax, refresh, and recharge. Like you, I am driven and always feel that there is more gas in my tank…even when I’m running on empty.
peace,
mike
livelife365
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi Mike, your comment made me chuckle. Loved this line: ” always feel that there is more gas in my tank…even when I’m running on empty.” Of course I could relate. It made me wonder if people who really love living, love their work, love their play, love it ALL…might have a harder time drawing the necessary boundaries between…. There is so little in life that I don’t enjoy doing. I love new experiences (both physical and emotional) and places and people, etc. BUT as I get older I am learning to be more selective. You know how people say, “Pick your battles”, well I don’t have any battles but I do need to “Pick my passions!!” Learning to. Thanks Mike!! Great to see you here.
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brainteaser Says:
8 November 2008 at 5:30 am.
Hi Robin! How have you been, my friend? Visited you several times, but when I saw there was no new post, I just thought you might be out in the woods, communing with nature, with yourself.
An indomitable spirit. Vibrant. That’s what you are to me — and more. A happy soul, one who is surrounded by the essentials, and who knows how precious the things she’s got are.
Do take care always. And it’s good that you’ve slowed down a bit. Sometimes our body requires that from us.
Hugs and take care!
Robin Easton Writes:
Hey Sweetie, thanks for stopping by. It means much to me. I know you understand the great desire to live and take in all that Life has to offer. It’s one of the things that drew me to your site. And thank you for being so supportive in my need to slow down. Yes, this is one of those times that I require it. So it is all a new learning experience and one I embrace with open arms.
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earthmother Says:
8 November 2008 at 9:39 am.
Sadly, I believe many people have undernourished spirits these days. It gets reflected by a nation of individuals, living in fear and isolation with a blatant disregard for sweet Mama Earth. Imagine how differently the world would be if everyone listened to their “heart’s cry to slow down and take time to be alone in the woods. Time to simply breathe.”
I am so grateful that I’ve never lost that connection to Nature. I’ve known since childhood that going back to “the Wild” is what nurtures and sustains me. Daily, I spend time in the forest, recharging my battery and replenishing my soul. And yes, I do hear you, Robin…in the wind, the cry of the hawk overhead, the leaves crunching underfoot, and in the sound of my breath as I slow and become in sync with the heartbeat of the Earth. And I pause, and send Blessings back to you.
Robin Easton Writes:
So beautifully expressed. It really makes your name’s sake, “Earth Mother”, more powerful to me. I loved this poetic paragraph you wrote. So beautifully expressed; I was deeply moved by it. I felt myself breathing just reading it. I too will hear you my friend, no doubt. I believe we are all connected and in that place of grace as we sit in the woods we can send that loving energy out to the whole world.
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eddie Says:
8 November 2008 at 10:06 am.
Congratulations Robin!
There is an old quote attributed to the author Kurt Vonnegut
“To be is to do”–Socrates.
“To do is to be”–Jean-Paul Sartre.
“Do be do be do”–Frank Sinatra.
Sounds like your communing with the ‘Do be do be do’ aspect of living.
I’ve struggled with ‘doing’ and ‘being’ quite a bit in my life. It’s been quite a process to arrive at a point where it’s just OK just ”to be’. I was a serious amateur athlete for almost 15 years. Everything was subservient to training and racing.Ultra endurance bicycle racing,marathons and ultimately triathlons. I was driven to succeed at any cost. I was ranked nationally in the top half of one percent in the nation at the 10k run. When it ended I was the top amateur triathlete in my age division in the pacific northwest. Weekends were spent doing grueling workouts and/or racing….one must never lose their edge you know. For me so much of living in some sembalance of ‘balance” is discovering what my ‘driving’ mechanism is. We are all challenged I believe in finding our ‘core self’ that is not based on the for instance. I think this is particularly difficult given the pace of life in the technological age. And in fact the very tool that broadens our horizons (with apologies to my laptop) can be our enslavement.
You have exposed a healthy and wise awareness unto yourself. So it’s time to celebrate I’d say!
Lastly…I really appreciate all the truly heartfelt and astute observations you have made on my photography. You have a keen artistic eye and an ability to ‘see’ that is very well honed and I truly value the exemplary observations that you have left in my comment box. Rest assured that just one of your comments goes a long way to validating my effort. Just remember that it is not something I ever expect…rather, something that I’m grateful for, if and when they appear. In fact, if there was never another comment made…the impact of what you have offered to me is indelible!
Namaste
eddie
Robin Easton Writes:
Oh eddie, I hardly know where to begin. WOW! A triathlete, a wise man, and a visionary. As you know I’ve commented on your ability to “see” so it occurred to me that it takes one to know one! And I am very moved by your comment here. All of it. As well as your unbridled encouragement for me to be myself.
For me, Nature has a way of stripping away all the “…opinions, beliefs or expectations that we accept into our being from others, society, parents”, etc. They don’t exist in Nature. So I am left with my “core-self” and once again feel clear and clean and know who I am. Nature just “is”. And as you know, if we are open to her she just leaves us with who we truly are.
PS: I am able to leave the comments that I do on your site because they are simply a reaction to sparking Life that is ALREADY there. That’s why I love your art and YOUR ability to “see”. That’s exciting!! Hugs, Robin.
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earthtoholly Says:
8 November 2008 at 2:05 pm.
Oh Robin, yes, please do take a cue from my “turtle” and take it slow and easy! I think your idea of replenishing yourself through nature is beautiful. To relax and soak in the Earth’s energy is the only way to go. Take good care of yourself as we all look forward to your excellent posts! 
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Robin Easton Writes:
Thank you, thank you, Holly! I agree, there is nothing like Nature for me. Sooo beautifully soothing. Thank you for your understanding and support, I really appreciate it, as well as your kind words re: my posts. Hugs, Robin
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Chrissy Says:
8 November 2008 at 3:30 pm.
I do believe that being in nature has wonderful restorative powers. I love it when I just go and watch the waves back and forth, it just does it for me. It reminds that me that no matter how wound I may have become that “those” waves will still go back and forth. iI is a great comfort and it soothes me to watch them or if I can’t sleep, I picture them or a woody glade with sunlight just flickering through. However, I don’t need to tell you that you are not supposed to let it get to this stage…
Exhausted is not good my friend, you were not well a short time back, I do think you NEED to take more care of yourself…it is OK to rest, even the big guy up there did it!!! Big hugs – ChrissyXX
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi Chrissy, you are so dear. I too love the waves. When I lived in Australia I was by the sea so much, often lived right on the beach. Even though we have so much sun here in the Southwest USA, which I LOVE, I do miss the sea. Thank you for this wonderful “Mothering” support. It is so good to hear. And I agree that it’s best to stop BEFORE we are exhausted so that we don’t get sick, because if we get sick and have to be in bed, that’s time we could have been in the forest or watching waves!! I went for a lovely walk today at sunset and it was so glorious I felt like I’d gone to heaven and back. Just so amazing that time of day when everything is golden and the shadows are long and the evening birds are singing. I love it. And bigs hugs back to you my dear friend, Robin
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Kit Says:
8 November 2008 at 7:13 pm.
It makes me happy to hear you are taking some time for yourself and your beautiful connection to the natural world. Please take an extra deep breath and admire the scenery for me!
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi dear Kit, Thank you for your kind words here. Also, I was touched that you asked me to admire the scenery for you. I did that today on my walk. I will especially think of you tomorrow when I walk. Okay?! Sending hugs, Robin.
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Janet Gardner Says:
8 November 2008 at 7:44 pm.
Hi Robin,
I was so excited today when I got an email from blogcatalog about your post. I wanted to read it right away but had to go to work. Then when I came home I noticed your comment on my blog today. And thank you for the comment on goosebumps as well. I appreciate it now even more after reading this post. I feel for you. We want to always remain strong and keep on keeping on, but sometimes our light inside of us needs to dim a little I think. Renew our energy. I know after being by my mothers side for 17 months after her double stroke, even though she was in a nursing home, we were there for her everyday and did a lot of her care taking, we just were not able to do it on our own at home because she was paralyzed and had many issues any way, after her passing this past January 12th, I went home and was exhausted for about a month.
Sometimes we need to step back and realize we have limits, and that one more may break our spirit that we have worked so hard to attain. I live near the ocean in Plymouth Ma, I have always been drawn to the water, like you to the forest. I go down the street everyday and spend a few minutes looking at the water and the shoreline. It is so beautiful, it renews me. So take that time to visit your forest everyday. You will be renewed to do that one more!!
I got your comment twice today so I posted one and I will have to reject the other, just because they are the same. I just wanted to let you know in case you get a notice I didn’t really reject it. Blogger just must have made a mistake.
Take Care !
Janet
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi Janet, what a lovely comment here. That is amazing what you did for your mother. Bless you for such kindness and caring. It must have made all the difference to her. I can also easily understand that you must have been physically and emotionally drained. And I agree sometimes we do need to just pull back from everything. So thank you for this generous support and for sharing your experience. It touched me to read your honest story. Also thank you for your kind words re: wanting to read my blog. So dear!
We are quite a pair; I got two comments from you as well, both almost identical. So if you see a delete notice I too deleted the second one. We must have met in cyber space and got so excited that we double posted!!! LOL
You take care as well,
Robin
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horatio salt Says:
8 November 2008 at 9:26 pm.
life is a balloon.
at birth,
it is empty
of experience
but full
of potential.
with every breath,
you fill it up.
when it’s full,
it flies beyond
earth’s embrace
to write its story
across the sky.
when it leaks,
it drifts down
and down
to settle in the
evening woods
where it sits
alone
until it heals,
when each breath
can lift it skyward
once again
toward a new
day’s sun.
Robin Easton Writes:
You are SUCH a luv, this is sooooooooo beautiful and moved me to tears. I am stunned! I am going to print this out and put it on my office wall. I felt like you saw all the way down to the bottom of my soul.
You wrote:
“…to settle in the
evening woods
where it sits
alone
until it heals,
when each breath
can lift it skyward
once again…”
Wow!! When I got to those lines I felt this amazingly strong sense of Robin….I really knew who I was/am. A huge feeling of sweet familiarity washed over me, like when you come face to face with yourself. This is truly a beautiful gift, one that will stick with me for many days. Because it really helps me remember what is vitally important. Thank you my friend….so much.
PS: Dear Friends, if you have not yet read Horatio Salt’s poetry he has the most beautifully evocative poetry site HERE.
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Evita Says:
10 November 2008 at 7:35 pm.
Hello Robin! Well I totally relate to your story as I am just now trying to catch up on my google reader after days of not being able to find the time to get to it!
Oh your post as always inspired me so. The very first thing that popped into my head (and please do not think this sounds cheesy) but “I want to be like her when I grow up”.
Well I am grown up, but it is that same vitality for life that you have that I always want to have too. I want to keep it with me and cherish it. And because I want it so bad I believe and know in my heart I will have it!
You are such an amazing example and inspiration for me (and I know for many others)
But definitely rest and enjoy yourself in any way your body and spirit needs, for it is only then that we can feel and continue to get the most out of life!
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi my dear Evita, This is such a radiant burst of Life here in this little comment. I read it and thought, “You are like me. I am like you. We are of one heart!” I knew that the day I met you. You have also been a great inspiration for me and continue to be so. You truly foster and share Life everywhere you go with everyone and everything you come in contact with. Just beautifully vibrant. You are one of those people who LIVE it. Some people talk about it and have all the right words,and that’s okay too, but you live vitality. You always will. It’s who you are.
Also, thank you for these kind heartfelt words. They mean a lot to me. And thank you for encouraging me rest and take care of myself, as I know you are very right when you say, “….it is only then that we can feel and continue to get the most out of life!” I went for a soothing walk along a creek in the mountains yesterday and just fell in love with the Earth, over and over again. The smells of decaying leaves and damp earth were so invigorating and familiar that I wanted to stay there forever. We often don’t get damp Earth here in the Southwest so the Earth doesn’t smell like it does in wetter areas of the country, but when we do get moisture it is like heaven unleashed, and the Earth smells rise up sweet and strong. I love that.
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David Says:
10 November 2008 at 9:43 pm.
Thank you Robin. I am so glad you are here.
Robin Easton Writes:
Thank YOU David.
And thank you again for your support and advice.
It means a lot to me.
Hugs,
Robin
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Bird Says:
11 November 2008 at 4:33 am.
Get out there and sink your feet into the earth, draw up the energy you need. It’s easy to hurt yourself by doing too much, I’ve ended up out for the count for six months or more due to exhaustion. All that energy that’s flowing out? It has to be grounded, and there is a good reason that that is the word we use. Hmph. listen to me. I wonder if I will ever take my own advice
Robin Easton Writes:
Dearest “Little” Bird, This is wise advice, and I appreciate you honestly sharing your experience. You are SO right about the “grounding”. And for me it is not something I can do in head or even reading a book; as you know I have to be with the Earth, just me alone with the Earth. Aaah yes, “the ground”. I’ve used that word a thousands of times and never thought of it that clearly. As you say, there is a reason we use that word. AND if you ever need your own advice back, I shall be ready to give it to you. We can give it back and forth. Lol.
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Bird Says:
11 November 2008 at 4:35 am.
Hmmm… did my last message go through? I hope so. If not… get out there and sink your feet into the dirt, get yourself grounded, you need to refuel! Go on now, shoo! :0
Robin Easton Writes:
Yes, your other dear message went through, but I liked this one as well. It’s very cute and made me laugh!! So I am posting too! Since it’s my blog I get to do that!!! LOL
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soulMerlin Says:
11 November 2008 at 9:17 am.
Hi Robin ~ You are such a good writer that there is no need to worry about people vanishing from your blog…As Pentad says “We’re not going anywhere”
There comes a moment when the cup is empty and needs to be refilled.
love
henry
Robin Easton Writes:
Hi my dear henry friend, Thank you for these kind warm words. They do my heart good. Even if you all vanished I would hunt you down. LOL!!! And yes, another great analogy, “…the cup is empty and needs to be refilled.” I like that one! Hugs to you my friend!
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Rob Says:
11 November 2008 at 7:42 pm.
Your blog is nourishing and nurturing like a hearty meal for the soul.
By the way I added your comments to the end of my post. Let me know if that’s not okay.
Peace be with you.
Robin Easton Writes:
Thanks Rob, I am honored to have you do that.
And thank you for your kind heart and kind words.
You shine!
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miriam Says:
12 November 2008 at 9:28 am.
Robin, I do the same thing—-just one more…… My body screams out to sit down and relax, and yet I push to complete all the things on my list. Write, clean, cook, exercise, contact people and customer service for computer problems, etc. I put off going to pee until I’ve walked the dogs, made the bed, answered the phone. It seems I allow myself to get off my feet and veg on the couch only after everything is done. At that point I am exhausted and drained. One day I did switch it around and decided my brain was screaming at me and needed to calm down. I rested and fell asleep, only to awaken refreshed and miracle of miracles, I was able to complete the things on my list with time to spare. I try to be conscious of enjoying the beauty of the things around me, like Dale’s Garden and my two dogs. Isn’t it strange that I don’t feel entitled to cuddle up with the dogs and accept the love that they give me, until all the bullshit stuff is done.
Anyway, I relate, please rest, know that I think of you often.
Hugs,
mir
Robin Easton Writes:
Oh Mir, this is beautifully expressed. I think a lot of my women friends would relate to this. I’ve done the same so many times and I too am trying to be more aware of what I’m doing and why. Is there a REAL need to keep going? Rarely. And I ask myself where does this type of thinking come from. I wasn’t always like this. In fact I was totally the opposite, but then I lived a totally different lifestyle, which I am working on returning to. After years in the wild I find my society very entrenched in doing, doing, doing and very little “being”. It’s almost like a vortex that we can get caught up and until it is moving us instead of US moving US (by conscious choice. I’ve also learned that there really is enough time for everything and if I slow down the world tends to slow down with me. And in fact I am more productive if I rest when I need it. We all could put a sign in our houses that read: “STOP and THINK – is this really what you need to do right now?”
I appreciate and honor you honesty here. It means a lot to me. Thank you for taking the time to share it. Hugs and love, Robin — PS I think of you as well!!
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Shawna Coronado Says:
12 November 2008 at 9:44 am.
Robin – your last post really hit a place in my heart. I like your blog and want you to keep coming back and working hard at it – it’s an inspiration to us all. Happy, positive thoughts go to you! Take care, Shawna Coronado (www.thecasualgardener.com)
Robin Easton Writes:
Dear Shawna, thank you for your visit and very kind words. I know the feeling, as your writing touches me as well. I go away inspired. Your writing is fresh and clean! Thank you for the positive thoughts!!! Hugs, Robin
PS My friends, Please check out Shawna’s blog; it is not only very beautiful eye-candy but very well written. She is a gem!
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sky Says:
12 November 2008 at 1:22 pm.
Namaste’ Dear Robin! I am just trying to make it back to civilization again, as is typical the weather forces things to slow down too quite a bit. As I read your post, it reminded me of how every day break when I awaken, I have the thought of, “today my spirit is once more *re-born* ,” and on days I wake where I don’t *feel* that, I know I have been doing a disservice to that spirit :0( as some days I may wake up and just really not feel what I should, but what perhaps is needed to warn me of a break down, or possible one.
If I feel *nothing * at all just empty , a void I know I have pushed myself from the caring too much, to the feeling nothing at all but numbness. Then I REALLY know I am not where I should be and who I am.
I don’t mean complete break-down as in crazy either, although to not heed those whispers long enough they can become literal shouts of insanity :0)
he he, But you could not put it more eloquently as in “not one more of ANYTHING at all.” Your spirit will shut down on it’s own forcing your body and actions to follow suit.
I know, I have always found it hard to put a timer on myself, an invisible switch of sorts to flick when I notice the energy charge getting low, and it is time to reboost. Like you it’s squeeze just a bit more out of that tube.
We notice a washing machine breaking down before it’s time, and many will pre-empt it from completely falling apart, we fix our car engines to get more mileage to avoid buying a brand new car, yet within ourselves, we push the joints and machinery to near complete destruction at times, always thinking it won’t take much to fix right back up again.
Oh, So not true. It takes more energy to fix it back up again, than if periodic checks were simply followed.
Some months I am right on that preventative thought, some months I fall back into my old self of pushing and sometimes getting into a fixation of *just having* to get this or that done. I won’t even eat some days, and at the end of it go, why do I feel hungry? Oh did I even eat today? MY wolves are like that…they get into a ZONE of fixation, and it takes a mighty big *better than their fixation* to break them out of it. hahahahah
I had to laugh though cause as you write not one more…you answer every single persons post to you here. Classic Robin ;0) In spirit we meet.
Metta
Robin Easton Writes:
My dear “never-forgotten-friend”. I am blown away and completely, utterly, honored to see you here. This comment of yours is SO Sky! I loved what you wrote about waking up; that is a great and very crucial guideline. Also, your analogy of machinery that we usually take very good care of and yet with ourselves….well. I also cherished your honesty that some months you are right there in the “preventive thought” and others you fall back. I am the same. I too can get so engrossed in what I’m doing that I forget to eat. But what made this so real for me was when you said your wolves are also like this as well. I too have seen this in wild creatures in the rainforest, and it takes something pretty drastic to tear them away from their fixation.
And yes, I laughed too when I responded to all the comments. Oh deeeeear! LOL
It really is a treat to “feel” you here. And an honor because I know how busy you are tending the wolves. So I feel very privileged by your delightful and open-hearted presence. You are passion and vitality unleashed; I love that about you and of course relate.
Yes, in spirit we meet, understand and connect….always,
Robin
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Liara Covert Says:
20 November 2008 at 8:39 pm.
To raise awareness of how you treat your physical body reveals that your learning never ends. It is remarkable to tap into one’s earliest memories, those details that many people suppress or overlook in favor of focusing on something else. As people evolve, they can remind themselves what it means to truly “feel.” Sensations are very specific. Yet, people are often de-sensitized to how they feel, what they can feel and what they have felt before. The process of aligning all the energy you feel contributes to that ever-present sense of inner completeness. People forget it exists. All human beings are connected to everyone and everything. Whenever you rest, or stand back from hustle-bustle, you reconnect to it all, transform and feel born again.
Robin Easton Writes:
This is so beautifully expressed, Liara. I couldn’t agree more. It think it is especially crucial to rest and stand back in these “appearingly” fast paced time. I say “appearingly” fast paced because the times are only that way if we choose to stay in the frothing white water tossing about, flailing our arms and legs, creating more white water, and never catching our breath. But if we extricate ourselves from the tumult we can still find calm….it’s always there. It always has been and will be. It just IS. Thank you again for this lovely comment. Hugs, Robin
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Will Pow Says:
24 November 2008 at 2:45 pm.
Sometimes when the pressure is on you can feel ashamed not to live up to your own high standards – and perhaps that is the time to take that break..
This is an inspiring post… on a wonderful blog!
Robin Replies:
Hi Will! I really like your words: “Sometimes when the pressure is on you can feel ashamed not to live up to your own high standards – and perhaps that is the time to take that break.” I am going to remember that. It’s like a gauge isn’t it?!! If I start thinking like that, then it’s a signal for “time out” to rest or refresh. That’s a powerful insight. Just the fact that one starts thinking like that is a good sign that they need a break. Thank you for sharing this and for your kind supportive words.
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Stacey Huston Says:
4 December 2008 at 4:37 pm.
Who’s standards were you trying to live up to dear girl. I know what you mean, but you really have to take the time to recharge now and again.. In the “REAL” world.. away from this plugged in life. I too have a hard time prioritizing, and get totally FRUSTRATED when I don’t keep up with my own goals.. then I see to take it out on everyone around me.. lol… Breath and realize that we all have limitations and that is OK too. Sometimes our souls try to tell us what we need, we just have to learn to listen.
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